Sunday, September 21, 2008

Failures and goodies

Today was full of so many wonderful gifts...the sermon this morning at Faith, the song we listened to in service, the joy of being connected to a body of believers of Jesus, being able to read the Bible in freedom, good Indian food at Taj Mahal, my nap, reading homework for my class, talking with my cousin, random conversations, catching up with an old friend and discussing heart and world issues, typing on my laptop on the floor, etc.  

God in His grace and mercy decided to bless me today even though I was not disciplined in certain things.  That's who God is.  That's what I am learning about Him more and more.  He gives when I deserve death for the sin in my heart.  

The song the music pastor sang this morning in church was called "Carried to the Table".

Here are the lyrics that shattered the moldings of pride that gripped my heart this morning:

Carried to the Table

Wounded and forsaken
I was shattered by the fall
Broken and forgotten
Feeling lost and all alone
Summoned by the King
Into the Master's courts
Lifted by the Savior
And cradled in His arms

I was carried to the table 
Seated where I don't belong
Carried to the Table
Swept away by His love
And I don't see my brokenness anymore
When Im seated at the table of the Lord
Im carried to the table
The table of the Lord

Fighting thoughts of fear
And wondering why He called my name
Am I good enough to share this cup
This world has left me lame
Even in my weakness
The Savior called my name
In His holy presence
Im healed and unashamed

You carried me, my God
You carried me

God has seated me at a place at His banqueting table of love...a table I am not worthy to sit at.  I will never be worthy to sit at on this earth.  Praise God for His love and the LOVE of Jesus!!!  Praise Him for WHO HE IS.  He is the only ONE who can help us see without the guilt and shame that fogs our eyes.  He really carried me last year.  I really had let myself get beaten up by the sin I chose for myself and He had to CARRY me back to Him.  Praise Him!!




3 comments:

lanes said...

Mmmm HMMM! Praise Him for His carrying us when we're so weary we cannot walk another step. Love you, sis.

Tricia said...

I really like this song!! I hope that FBC or TBC does it sometime... it's hard to admit your weakness and allow him to carry you back to him, but it's the only way. Good stuff.

Ren said...

yes mam. we really all need him to carry us. We can't do it without Him even though we think we can. love you girls.

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I just graduated from college and am beginning to adjust to a new life in Indiana. I am here to take a Biblical counseling class through Faith Baptist Church. I first heard about this class through a woman that counseled me in Manhattan last year. I was engaged to be married when I began to meet with this woman, and obviously God had different plans. So here I am, trying to let God reshape who I am and wait on Him to invite me to be part of His plan here on this earth. God is my rock and I want to trust Him even during hard times. I know that it is only by His grace that I am who I am today. "Thank you Jesus for your tender-loving care and for letting me get to know you in a very close way."